Junio

Once classes ended, it felt like the mess after the storm. I was now left to pick up the pieces, try to reorganize, and attempt to rest after so much forced movement, energy and expectations.

Now, I sit with all the free-time, and I have nothing to say. Perhaps I work best during constricting schedules, and my mind creates patterns better when set under fire. To distract myself, other than catching up with faux-fiction, I have set to read on the basics - Pythagoras, some Herodotus and even draw a bit. The latter requires me to look into my Tarot books for definitions of cards that I will add to the art piece of a coworker, hoping that the images she burns onto her skin are filled with positive symbolisms. I will primarily use the Spanish Naipes style cards - one that I was so fond of during my high school years.

The fascinating thing for me of Pythagoras is his view of the Pentagram - the most harmonious symbol, according to his mathematical equations. It was called ὑγιεία Hygieia, after the goddess, with each letter corresponding to each element: ὕδωρ water; γαῖα earth; εἱλή heat (fire); ἰδέα idea or ἱερόν, Hieron "a divine thing"; ἀήρ air. We also see Venus create a pentagramic shape on its inferior conjunctions on its successive movement.


I have in turned, purchased a pentagram to wear. But why? While the symbols appears in Taoism, Freemasonry, Aristotelian philosophies it is mostly seen a Wiccan/Neopagan/Witchcraft symbol, none of which I subscribe to personally. So why? Because of the Pythagorean and Sumerian view of it, and because as I usually do, I like to create my own personal symbolism based on viewing things at different perspectives.

If there were a mutually agreed upon symbol I could associate with Hellenic worship, the way the Mjølnir is to Ásatru, I would use it. While I wear a Caduceus, it gets (to my displeasure) confused more with Nursing and Health, than Wisdom and Transcendence. I would expect no different with the pentagram. However, since I began wearing it, albeit a bit worried of the commenting of coworkers and because of my own prior preconceptions of it, I found that it has been quite an interesting week. Even with the deluge of bad news in regards to family, it has kept me with a calm disposition regarding all of it.

In the next few days I will celebrate my birthday. I am not looking forward to it. As the days roll by I find myself wondering if what I do is worthwhile, if what I name is worth applying to, if what I believe thus far is what I should do. I constantly change, I am the essence of a Mercurial personality. The things around me will act as a catalyst to change me internally, changing my properties, changing my set paths. The more I dig a hole, the more I wonder how deep am I willing to go.

That day is also Hekate's Deipnon.

May her torches light the way for me,
may her steps beside me guide me,
and may her hounds keep me company.